An Update: Sharing Myself, Biz, Volunteering, Soulmate Relationship

Hey Everyone,

I thought I’d share an update on me as I haven’t really since I got back from the DT Training in January. Thought I’d write one partly because many of you are sweet to email and ask me how I’ve been and what I’ve been up to. And so, in some ways it’s more efficient to write updates here, ha. But also, it’s to challenge fears I have about sharing myself, because I’m really uncomfortable writing a long post about me! Not because I want to hide my life or don’t want others to know what’s going on, but rather other fears of sharing myself. So here goes anyway…

Life since returning from Australia has been very up and down, but mostly down. However, reflecting back, I can see that there have been some changes in some of my emotions which is good. In January, I returned to Salt Lake City, Utah, where I’ve been living since early 2016, but which, though stunning in it’s natural landscape, has never really felt great to live in. SLC feels quite oppressive and spirit-saturated, more than elsewhere in the USA I’ve lived and traveled.

I had a few couple of months where I really struggled to re-integrate into life after doing the DT Training. In Australia I felt happier and more alive than I’d ever felt, and it was hard coming back. I struggled with feeling paralyzed, stuck, defeated, trapped, hopeless, angry, scared, lonely, desperate, doomed, sad…. I could keep going. Basically all the bummer emotions. As I talked about in my most recent video, I still sometimes have brief sinks into depression and even suicidal feelings–not that I want to go to the spirit world, just that I don’t want to exist. And those feelings arose occasionally during this time. I discovered how deeply embedded in me are feelings that God doesn’t want me to be happy, wants me to suffer, and will get mad at me if I ever ask for or want anything more in my life. That of course I was back in a sad life after being so happy for a few months, because who was I to think I could be happy? I felt like I’d been banished back into a dark corner because the joy was never really mine to have anyway, and like maybe it’s because God was punishing me and feels I am bad. I also felt all this stuff again when I returned from a trip to England in April (more on that later).

However, feedback I’d received from Jesus and Mary in Aus really pulled me through the collective 7 months I’ve been here, and helped me get into a few emotions (here’s one bit of that feedback). I’ve cried a lot, had a couple good anger releases, and faced some fears standing up to a super angry female housemate I attracted who really hated me (eep!). I’ve read a lot of Alice Miller, re-listened to my feedback over and over, and have tried to redirect myself into dealing with emotions about my childhood and my parents’ treatment of me when I got into those depressive and hopeless places emotionally. Overall, I feel I’ve been able to come to terms with more truth about what happened to me, which has helped, and I do think I’ve worked through some stuff since getting back from Australia. And so while I’ve been angry at/scared of the Law of Attraction a lot of this time, I can now see a lot of the circumstances were perfect for squeezing out of me emotions I needed to feel through.

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Hiking outside Salt Lake City

I also tried to focus on a few goals I had for returning to the USA after the DT Training. They were:

Continue volunteering:

I had never volunteered for Divine Truth before going to Australia, despite having listened to it adamantly for years by that point. I think there were several reasons. First off, for most of of my DT listening years, I was with a partner who hated DT. It caused so many problems in our relationship just for me to watch it, and I can see I pandered to my ex-partner and lived in my fear of her attack and fear of what would happen to the relationship if I really engaged my passion for it beyond watching. It was significantly better in the relationship if Divine Truth was just a side hobby, and the more passionate I became about it, particularly over the last year of the relationship, the worse I was treated. It makes me sad to reflect on how I chose to suppress myself and my happiness so significantly just to avoid fears. All avoiding fear did was waste time and cause more damage.

Additionally, I’ve had a lot of feelings like I’m not in a good enough soul condition to do certain things for/with Divine Truth. This has been an excuse to avoid fear. I’ve realized it’s mostly about desire, and also that engaging desires pulls me through emotions which can improve my condition anyway if I am humble to them. So telling myself I needed to be in a better condition first was to justify my avoidance of fear and avoidance of taking action.

Lastly, I have a huge fear of making mistakes and messing things up. This fear is one that constantly smothers my passion, desire, excitement, and happiness in life and affects everything, and I suspect it won’t go until I take more actions, feel more of this fear that arises when I do, and grieve how I was treated by my parents which created such a huge fear of punishment and rejection for ever doing anything wrong.

So… I did some logging of FAQ questions and ended up really enjoying it a lot, though I did/do still have fears of making mistakes. I really like organization, documentation, data and spreadsheets!

Make changes to my business/challenge emotions through business changes:

Mary and Jesus gave me really awesome feedback on emotions that were affecting how I was doing my business. In short, I was (and still am to an extent), not sharing the full scope of what I’m passionate about regarding God and DT in my business, but rather keeping that private, and therefore suppressing myself and not being honest with everyone. I was also in fear of what certain groups of professional peers would think if I started saying the full truth about the topics I teach about in my business. And lastly, I was hiding sharing myself in all of it–the same issues I described at the start of this post. Some of these choices have been motivated by my fear of ruining my business and not making enough money, but mostly they’ve been about terror of others attacking me and not liking me if I share more of God’s Truth on issues, and most of all if I share more of myself and be myself.

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Early morning work sessions.

This issue of changing my business was one that I had no humility about for a while. I was excited when I talked with them about it all in Australia, but when I got back, I had this total brick wall of fear up. Jesus and Mary suggested that if I shared myself, was more in harmony with God’s Principles, was more truthful etc., that things could get better, I’d enjoy it more, my business would probably do better, receive more donations, and would be helping more people. But I had this feeling like, “No, that is not true for me.” I had never quite felt like that about any of Jesus and Mary’s feedback before. Fear is so weird, y’all.

I was convinced if I did so, I would inevitably plunge into homelessness, bankruptcy and utter despair and desolation. I was convinced if I did what they suggested, it would ruin my business, my life, and that I would never be able to survive financially, as I barely was already, and that the domino effect would end in everything being much worse than it was. And because it was already not very happy, I couldn’t risk things getting even worse. I always joke with friends that they can give me any scenario whatsoever, and I will figure out how that could somehow end up in disaster. I’m an expert at the path from Anything Point A to Apocalypse Point B.

It took me about 3 months of feeling various emotions to go from JUST NO. to making my first video. Making videos–both on my business youtube channel and my God, Love and Truth one–has been quite interesting. I battle with fears that I’m arrogant and self absorbed every time I make one that includes more sharing of myself and isn’t just nutritional info. I worry that I’m saying the wrong things and going to make mistakes with what I say. Emotions have often been triggered while preparing the outlines and rehearsing for the video, partly in relation to the specific topic I’m sharing about, and partly generally just with sharing myself at all. And so I can see that I have benefitted also from facing my fear of putting myself out there. I don’t really know how to gauge how truly helpful the vids are to others, and most of the time feel like I’m shooting in the dark, but I hope to keep refining myself and dealing with emotions so they can be helpful for others.

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So now I talk about Divine Truth in some of my business videos. I talk about Jesus and Mary (I did this before with my clients, just hadn’t much publicly). I’m not totally excluding God from discussions about veganism and food addiction and juicing because I’m afraid people will think I’m nuts or stupid as much as I was before. And guess what? My business hasn’t dissolved into nothing, and I’m not living next to a gutter or have had to take a job that made me more depressed. And I am enjoying operating my business so much more than I was. While the Law of Attraction is showing me I have a lot more emotional work to do in the areas of self worth and money, I have received a bit more donations since making these changes, not less or none like I was convinced I would.

I still have a lot of fear about many things with the videos, and I still feel apologetic about talking a lot about God, so I have a great deal more to work on. But what I’ve experienced so far is that my fear is not always true. That fact is still shocking to me! I am starting to see how important it is to take action despite my fear, to challenge the fear by action, and to not let fear dictate all my life decisions. I always wanted to think I could feel through and deal with my fear before taking action, but I’m not sure that’s actually possible. Taking action, though feels a lot more unstable, is feeling better than despair and flatness of inaction. I’m becoming more aware of the massive amounts of suffering I inflict on myself by justifying and avoiding my fear, and also more about how my fear affects others too.

Figure out how to see Perry:

I suppose this is my first time saying it more publicly and I’m feeling weird writing about it, but there’s a guy… his name is Perry and I feel he’s my soulmate… some of you may know him from videos and the former DT Forum.

His and my story is kind of long, but the short of it is we’ve known each other for nearly 9 years, but for the first 7.5 we were just friends with some sexual projection, of course mostly at a distance being in different countries. Our injuries were so compatible–if you could call it that–such that it never moved farther friends. I was always very drawn and attracted to Perry, but felt he’d never go for a girl like me, didn’t feel good enough for him, and was certain I’d be rejected, so I never said a word, essentially concluding there’d be no point in me doing so. His injuries were such that though he had some attraction and affection for me, I don’t have the emotional injuries he’s been most attracted to, and being around me has always triggered uncomfortable emotions in him, and so he never said anything either. There are also other emotions on both of our sides that contributed to that 7.5 years of mostly-avoidance, but at the moment those are some of the big ones we’re aware of.

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Arizona in 2010.

After 7.5 years, I was terrified to, but confessed some of my feelings, found out to my total surprise that he’d had feelings for me too (I had no clue before then), and then we’ve been trying to figure out our relationship ever since then. We’ve been gifted lots of feedback from Jesus and Mary and have tons and tons to work through. I often feel I’d like to share a bit more about what what’s happened in our relationship and particularly the feedback we’ve received, in case it could help others with various soulmate emotions and relationship issues, particularly for couples with similar injuries/dynamics as we have, but also I don’t feel confident sharing about relationships as I’ve got so much stuff there. So we’ll see.

I went to England and spent the month of April with Perry, and am now planning to go back for a longer period of time next month. Jesus told me that Perry and I both have emotions of being content with a certain distance, with Perry being in England and me being in America, and if we get too close we’ll get triggered, and if we get too far away we’ll get triggered, so we feel comfortable with a certain distance between us. I am discovering just how true that us for me! I often feel so much warmth and love for him, but I’m also scared of actually engaging a soulmate relationship. So I would like to challenge those fears, and I just feel there’s a heap of stuff in me that simply never gets triggered when I’m on my own as I’ve mostly been recently, and stuff that seems to not be triggered except by Perry specifically. So while I have fears, I’m also really excited to go back to England and also excited to hopefully get through some more stuff.

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London in 2017.

And after England (because there’s a limit on how long I can stay there), I’m really wanting to go back to Australia to volunteer as I just loved the DT Training and my time in Oz so, so, so much. I look back on it and am still blown away I got to do it; I can’t believe how lucky I am to have. And would just love so much to help in any way I can. I adore it!

So that’s me for now.

Love,

Courtney

P.S. If anyone discovers how to transport instantly, please let me know because that would help immensely in the juggling of three continents. 😉

Video: Depression and Suicidal Feelings P1

Hello again,

I’ve just uploaded a new video to my GLT channel. This video is the first in a series about depression and suicidal feelings, and suicide, and what I’m learning from Jesus and Mary is God’s Truth about these topics and why we have these feelings.

In this video I share a bit about my personal experience with it, and some of what I’ve learned about these subjects from Divine Truth. In future videos I’ll share more about what has helped me to heal some of this and improve in these feelings, and also what the reasons are that I still have them sometimes.

I hope they’re helpful for anyone who might struggle with them too. I have them in the comments for the video, but for additional info about them, I’ve really loved several DT videos to understand more, including:

Why does life often feel so helpless and empty?

Why do I want to hurt myself so much?

Jesus on Suicide

What is Suppression?

Love,

Courtney

Videos: Food Addiction, Soul-Based Shift To Being Vegan

Greetings from a hot Salt Lake City, Utah, in summertime!

Over the last few months I’ve been making some videos, some about food addiction, overeating and weight loss, as well as some about having a soul-based shift into being vegan. In these videos, though they’re on my business-related channel, I talk here and there about Divine Truth principles Jesus and Mary teach, so thought I’d share about those videos on this blog.

Playlist for food addiction, compulsive eating, weight loss (below is first of several videos):

Playlist about a soul-based, emotional shift into being vegan (below is first of several videos):

Love,

Courtney

New Video: Sexual Orientation Confusion P2

Hi Everyone,

I decided there was more to say (and maybe there is still yet more to say) on the topic of injuries and sexual orientation. So, this is the second video in the series where I discuss emotional injuries which caused my own confusion about my soul’s makeup and my attractions.

In this video I discuss more about dreams, others’ addictions to wanting to prevent people from working through sexual emotions, sexual bartering and manipulation, fears, and potential childhood root causes.

Sometimes the embedded video hasn’t been showing up when the post goes out to people subscribed, so in case that happens and you can’t see the video below, you can view Part 2 by clicking here. And for Part 1, click here.

Love,

Courtney

Another Youtube Channel: Veganism, Juicing & Food Addiction

Hello Everyone,

As I’ve mentioned before, my current main work is as a nutritionist. It’s been a long time coming, but I’ve finally created a youtube channel for my work as well, and I thought I’d mention it here in case anyone would like to subscribe to keep up with the videos I’ll post there as well. On this other channel, eventually you’ll find videos pertaining to health, juice cleansing, vegan nutrition and healing food addiction, and I’ll talk about God’s Truth on those matters and in the context of Divine Truth.

Thanks to Jesus and Mary for gifting me such awesome feedback regarding the way I’ve been doing my work, and their encouragement in my being more of myself and sharing more of what I really love within my current work. It’s an ongoing process for me to work through my fears about sharing who I really am and what I’m really passionate about, but I feel optimistic about it. And thank you always to them for discovering and sharing God’s Truth about these subjects, and well, pretty much everything!

I think it’s likely that as my passions develop, someday these two channels will merge into one as my long-term goal is just to help share God’s Truth with the world as the only thing I do, but for now, anything related to health, veganism, and food addiction, as well as topics like the soul and emotions and God related to those topics will be posted on my work channel. And other topics, such as sexuality, soulmates, spirits and things that aren’t along the lines of health, food and overeating etc., I’ll post on my God, Love, and Truth channel. So both will talk about DT and God, just with a bit of a theme on each.

Below is the welcome video for my work channel.

Also, there’s not really a need to announce it, but as long as we’re here, I also made a welcome video for my God, Love, and Truth channel:

Love,

Courtney

Sexual Orientation Confusion & New Youtube Channel

Hi there,

I’m excited (and a bit self-conscious, I’ll be honest!) to announce I’ve made my first me-only video relating to Divine Truth, sharing more in detail my experience with being confused about my sexual identity and my soulmate makeup. I talk about how that happened, the insanely helpful feedback Jesus and Mary have gifted me which has helped me unravel it so far–I still have more to go–and DT video recommendations to learn more about the subjects of sexual projection, error-based versus pure attraction, and soulmates.

I plan to upload videos on many different topics in the future which will relate with my experiences with Divine Truth or just things I’m inspired by from Jesus and Mary’s teachings, even if I don’t have much experience with them yet! You can subscribe to the youtube channel by being signed into a gmail account and clicking the red “subscribe” button. I’ll announce new videos here, too.

If you want to get in touch to ask questions or clarifications about my experiences I describe in the video, feel free to email your questions to me at godloveandtruth@gmail.com.

Love,

Courtney

Fear and How I Nearly Missed the DT Training

If you’ve read my last blog about the The Divine Truth Training Program, you may have been able to garner how much I loved it. It was the best experience of my life and the biggest gift I’ve ever received. Every time I recall any part of it, I find myself staring off at nothing, lost in an incredulous feeling that I got to do it. I could gush about it endlessly.

Sometimes though, when lost in that grateful and stunned feeling, the recollection of something else makes my stomach knot in an instant. And that is remembering how I very nearly missed the entire experience–by my own choice.

To explain, I’ll need to backtrack a bit. For about three months before my arrival in Australia, I had been really lucky to participate in monthly mentoring groups for those desiring to assist in sharing Divine Truth with the world. Sharing DT has been my #1 desire for years; but something I’d not dared to let my heart run with–due to fears, feelings I have about desires, and feelings about myself. It was really generous on Jesus and Mary’s part to invite me along as I’d not actually acted on that desire yet.

Jesus and Mary had extended the invitation for the Training Program to a few people, but asked me in particular to please consider whether sharing Divine Truth was really my passion as I had not shown that through any actions thus far. I thought I’d considered it; going was all I could really think about and I wanted to do it so much, so I emailed to say I’d like to do it. I was accepted and booked my plane tickets.

Shortly after, we had another mentor meeting, and some of my questions regarding the upcoming experience and how I was not sure what I’d do after I got back home revealed that I hadn’t been as sincere as I was telling myself I had been in my examining my desires in the way that Jesus and Mary asked me to, and which needed to be the basis of going. They reminded me that a lot of resources and time from a lot of people would be going into the training and asked me that by the time I came, to have a definite feeling that sharing Divine Truth is what I want to do with my life, otherwise training me would not be a good use of resources. They were so very kind and loving as they are in every instance, and they are perfectly reasonable things to have asked of me–and I did feel that then–but I took things and twisted it in my own mind, and spiraled. Even listening back to that mentor meeting now, I marvel at how I missed all the encouraging things they said and fixed on just a couple things, and then twisted them completely. Spirits then took hold of those things and exploited them as well.

I spiraled in terror, and bad feelings about myself, and got very spirit attacked. I’ve never experienced anything like it: for weeks I couldn’t eat because I felt constantly like I could throw up. I had insomnia for the first time in my life, and when I did sleep, I’d often jolt awake violently in the middle of the night feeling choked or with a stabbing feeling in my stomach. I couldn’t concentrate or think straight; I was in a fog and struggled to work or get anything done. I spent entire days in bed crying and shaking and having no clue what to do about it or often why I even was. I would sometimes be walking around trying to do something in the house, suddenly have this dread come over me and my legs would physically lose their strength and I’d just have to lay down for a long time.

My head was going a million miles a minute at all times and here’s what it looked like on repeat. Many of these I wrote in my journal at the time:

This is the worst idea ever. You shouldn’t be going. You’re not sincere at all. Who do you think you are anyway? It’s going to be a disaster if you go. It’d be a miracle if you made it through without being kicked out; in fact it’s pretty much guaranteed you would be. You’re being selfish even considering going when you’ve done nothing helpful with Divine Truth. You have no idea what you’re talking about. You’re not ready and you’re arrogant to even think you might be. You can’t get to where you need to be within six weeks, it’s impossible. You’re clearly delusional about your supposed desire to share DT. You’re just going to disappoint Jesus and Mary and waste their time.

I’m terrible at taking action on anything, so what’s the point of getting trained? And what about the person I think is my soulmate? Am I just going to make plans for after the training without him? It’s an awful idea to go, it’s better if I wait longer, then maybe I’ll be ready at some point. Besides, the customs agents might not like that I’m doing something with Jesus and Mary for several months; they might not even let me through. And if I do get through the whole experience, I might ruin myself financially by not working for that long. It’s just too risky; one thing goes wrong and I’m screwed in so many ways. The whole thing is too risky and I’m not ready.

And so… after a few weeks in this place, I changed my plane tickets to only come for the Assistance Group and not for the training after. I had a brief thought before I did, “Maybe I should email J&M first before I change them, about my considering doing so?” but then had the thought You’ve wasted enough of their time, don’t bother them even more. Just make your own decision for once and be done with it.

And so, I paid the money to change my tickets. For a day and a half, I was like a sick person that’d become miraculously healthy again. I felt back to normal: I could focus again, work again, sleep again, eat again. It all felt much “better”. Then I emailed Jesus and Mary about the update, why I did it and how I wanted to come still, but later when I was more ready. I was fully convinced they’d agree I made the responsible choice and that my assessments were right.

To my surprise–though maybe not to yours reading this–that did not happen. (wink) Jesus and Mary gifted me feedback on the emotional injuries that had motivated my rational in not coming to the training. Fears had motivated my decision: fears of not being good enough, inadequate, making a mistake, not being able to cope (Not surprisingly, many of these are the exact same fears that have caused me to not take action in sharing Divine Truth). In this place, I convinced myself I was being logical and rational when I was actually being the opposite. And that’s what living in fear does: it makes us think we’re being reasonable when we’re not.

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I then paid the money to change the plane tickets back for the longer stay. So in the end I got to go after all, though the money lost was one of the compensations of my acting in fear. As soon as I changed them back, I was right back to how I felt before changing them. Though it wasn’t quite as bad, most of those feelings I’d mentioned above came back and I had a lot more sleepless nights, unproductive days and nausea. In fact, right up to the minute I got on the plane, I had an inevitable doom feeling like I was convinced somehow wasn’t going to make it there and really shouldn’t be going anyway. On the plane I had a meltdown, and even when I got to Noosaville I had a meltdown as soon as I checked into the accommodation. I took one look around, felt a nervous breakdown coming on, and thought:

This is the dumbest move you’ve ever made. You’re not going to make it through these whole 9.5 weeks, what are you even doing here? What’s the point? And now you’ve wasted money on your plane changes, too. You can’t do anything right. Always living in fear, always fucking up.

I cried for hours though probably not productively but rather in the same stuff as before. The severity of these feelings subsided a lot when I saw Jesus and Mary and felt their love and care for me, felt the atmosphere of love that bobbles around like a lovely cloud around them all the time, and when I started to work through some  emotions about how I’ve been treated in my life that have caused a lot of the injuries that drive these apocalyptic, obsessive terror spirals. And within about a week of being in Noosaville, I was starting to feel a kind of joy and desire I’ve never felt before, which grew over the time I was in Australia.

Later, during the weeks in the countryside, I chatted with Jesus and Mary a few more times about it. Mary said to me about my returning home after the training,

“The problem will be if you just go back and go ‘It’s all too hard, I can’t, there’s too much to do, I’m not good enough, I’ll stuff it up anyway’–kinda similar to that state you went into before you came of just like ‘No!’ And tell yourself it’s not a real desire and it’s not valid from God’s Perspective and then just bow out… You avoided the fear so much that you got to the point where you ended up rationalizing your inaction.”

That last line has stuck with me almost daily since being back. I often ask myself now, “Am I avoiding my fear and rationalizing inaction?”

And here’s the thing: while J&M gifted me the feedback in response to my initial changed plans, they didn’t have to. The reality is, it was my decision to back out of the training, and my (terror and error-based) desire, and they were under no obligation to inform me of what was going on with me even though they could see it clearly. They were extremely clear in all their ample feedback to me; it was me who made a series of decisions based on my own injuries. They said they’d considered leaving me with my desire and choice without saying too much, but felt perhaps it’d be an opportunity to learn about what happens when I avoid and live in my fear. And has it ever been! I don’t even know how to say how grateful I am they replied to my email with the gift more extensive feedback. I feel like they saved my life. Well, for realz–how many times have they and their teachings saved my life?! I would have assumed I made the right choice for the right reasons, left after the AG back home, and it may have been years or decades, or maybe not till being in the spirit world before I thought, “Hang on a sec, was that the right choice?” And then imagine the regret!! I could have easily missed out on the biggest opportunity and gift I’ve ever been offered in my life, and who knows what I would have missed out on as a flow-on effect of skipping the training. It makes me a bit nauseous to even think about how close I was to affecting my life for so long with just one decision made in the honoring of fear.

I wanted to share this story in case it might help others recognize how the avoidance of fear and living in fear–as well as bad feelings about ourselves–can cause us to rationalize decisions that are illogical, out of harmony with love, and aren’t beneficial for us. How justifying the fear can mean we miss major opportunities which would have been beneficial for our growth.

I still have enough fear that I am in danger of making similar big fear-based choices in the future again. I am still driven by fear in almost every situation. But I’m desiring more to see the truth of how justifying my fears has affected my life in the past, is affecting my life now, and how it could affect it in the future if I don’t begin dealing with some. In the weeks when I was booked in for the longer training, my fears were being triggered, but I was not dealing with them, but rather living in them. But during those few days in which my tickets were no longer for the training, I felt great, but it wasn’t because I’d done the good thing. It was because I’d completely put the lid on something that was triggering terror for me. I had entirely shut the whole process down, the spirits lifted, and that’s why I felt so much better. Looking back, this is what I’ve done continuously in my life: gone through periods–years–in a particular situation, stagnant, coasting, rarely feeling afraid of much. Rarely triggered, because my life was so set up with addictions, I’d controlled enough circumstances as possible, and most of all, was constantly turning away from any triggering situations. So, I felt “good” most of the time. But it is sobering to see what this prison we create for ourselves with our fear is really like.

I have to–and we all have to–be careful about getting into judgment about fear. I’ve gotten very self-punishing and judgmental about how fear-driven I am, but that’s also not going to help any of us deal with the fear. I’m tentative to say much of anything about how to process fear, but what I’m focusing on right now is taking more actions which trigger my fears, feeling a little more of them, and rather than blaming and judging myself for my having so much fear, instead seeing the fears my parents had themselves that were forced upon me and taught to me as truths about life and God, and also how their bad treatment of me created other fears and bad feelings about myself, and feeling the grief of all that.

Resources for learning about fear

Full length DT videos on fear

DT FAQ videos on fear

DT Clips on fear

Mary’s blogs on fear (my fave is “Living In Fear & the Freedom to Choose Differently“)

This particular mediumship on fear is also a favorite for me: 04 Aug 11 Mediumship with Mary & Jesus–Jesus Speaks with Cynthia–Helping A Group Of Fearful Women

Love,

Courtney